Hideous
Once Gorgeous
But now you remain with me for a couple of days
Then I will be
PRETTY Again

Do you enjoy my depression?
Are you happy that I am self Conscious?
Where did you come from anyways?

My lips
If you can even can call them lips
are HUGE!!

Cold Sore
I will rejoice the day when you are gone
But until then
I loathe you

10 interesting facts about myself..

1. I don't know how to stay mad at someone longer than an hour.. I have tried to stay mad but it has always been unsuccessful

2. I like to sleep before twelve in the evenings.. I get really tired easily. I am a morning person.

3. I never call people by their first name. It is always babe, baby, hunnie.

4. I do not know how to say the words: strategy, comfortable, specific.. not even close to the pronunciation

5. I am very good at remembering people's birthdays.. you only have to tell me once

6. One of my greatest fears are zombies.. I do believe they are real. I dont watch zombie movies.

7. I used to want braces and glasses when I was a child and I still wish I had freckles.

8. I like to eat my fries from the tallest to the shortest but I dont like people to know I like to eat it that way

9. I find driving relaxing.. especially at night

10. Whenever I see stars at night.. I still make a wish and say the nursery rhyme.. " star light star bright, the first star I see tonight, I wish I may, I wish I might, have the wish I wish tonight.."

What if I feel the grief of a thousand broken hearts settle deep within me?
As if I let misery become my purpose in life
Making me cry and finding content in my agony

What if i remain in darkness?
Running away from laughter and joy realizing I am out of ground?
Slowing disappearing and appreciating the truth that I won't have a name

What if I never love again?
Hindering my flimsy heart from destruction
Only allowing myself to dream only things in fairy tales

I will be alright
but when you feel terrified and abandoned
when you feel damaged
losing your self to pain
dont worry i'll be there

No matter what

i'll be there

Ruin

I can not be fixed cause I am already broken
Not torn in two nor torn in half
but into pieces that my dispearing eyes can not distinguish
Only imagining the lack of your existence... I was wrong
Instead now only to put this pain into actuality
Holding on to memories I let out confusion... allowing my heart to bleed
Drowning in my moruning, I remain mad
Not at you but at myself

Too full

I am full
At the sushi place
I love sushi
I can eat sushi everyday
I can eat sushi every hour
I can eat sushi every minute
I can eat sushi every second
But no more food please
Way too full
Way Way too full
Way WAY WAY too full
I cant eat anymore
Do not want to look at food
Cause I am not hungry anymore
I ate a lot
Way too full
Way too too full
Way TOO TOO full
Exquisite Eel...
Delectable Cucumber...
Enjoyable Shrimp...
Sticky Rice...
Fresh Seaweed..,
Milky Mayo...
Tempting Mango...
That is a lot of food
I am too full
Where is the check?

Stream of Consciousness

Tired want to go to sleep but I have too much work to worry about sleep right now.. actually i rather read my nook. its the best invention ever thought of. whom ever thought of it is a genius a pure idol. my dad just dropped something.. his favorite cup. how sad.. it went BOOM on the floor it was really loud scared the shit out of me. Careful where you step dont want to have glass on your foot do you? wow wow my sister just steped on the glass... i did say careful.. now they looking for the broom.. I really should help but im really lazy and tired to get up and contribute to cleaning my kitchen filled with little tiny specs of glass which once was a coffee mug.. i have homework so ill just do that

Watching

I only saw a glimpse of you
You did not realize I was there

You looked so luminous
The burning sun beaming on your supple, tan less skin

Walking so gracefully
Your massive feet barely touching the floor beneath you

You delicate figure
You were careful with every move

I wanted to go up to you
But I feared the worst situation would happen

The moment went by so fast
Then you were gone